MY MIND JUST FUCKING EXPLODED!!!!

Well, it's like pretty late right now. And I don't know if I'm myself right now, but it's not like I give a fuck right now either. I'm convulsing and shaking, and a whole bunch of other crazy things going on in my head. I did not expect my Friday to end like today. In my lifetime, I have enjoyed many movies, and some have even changed my life in ways also. However this movie has just rocked my very existence. I can't help but feel numb still. Sure any other person would just treat this as a movie. But this movie, which I expected to be just another testosterone pumping guy movie, has went far beyond my imagination. The movie simply being titled Fight Club, holds many many surprises. I could rant and rant about this, but long story short. It's my values and morals conflicting with my nihilistic beliefs rolled into one fucking movie. I could hardly believe it in the end. I came to a deep inner realization of myself. A middle ground of my conflicts. It is one of the most exhilarating feelings ever. Like walking into a major anime convention. I'm quivering, heart pulsating, the inability to speak well. A movie has never affected me like this, and I don't believe any other movie will. Fight Club is a representation of my inner conflicts. It might even be a omen for me. I might be the next person who befriends Tyler Durden. I can't help but be in a state of Nirvana right now.

Being the MAN!

Well being the man.... Well, frankly I don't really know all toooo well. Since I've been like %60 percent new age sensitive man most of the time. Yea, go ahead and call me a queer <.< To help get the point better. I'll do what I do best. Make guidelines! ^^

1. Control your emotions!

Men don't burst into tears. Real men cry, but you better have a good reason to, lol. And men don't throw emotional tantrums. However don't turn into an emotionless statue, just keep a clear head, and don't let your emotions rule you. *cough* Women! *cough*

2. Be independent!

While doing things together is fun, doing it too much can be torture! A girl doesn't want a man to be by her side all the time. (You creeper!) Have a life separate from hers. Like video game nights and adventures with the guys. If you dedicate yourself too much, the guys will think your whipped, and your lady will think and use you as a tool. Counter balance those creepy ball-jointed dolls with some badass Kamina action figures!

3. Be Strong and Courageous!

If a bear is about to attack a woman or child. You'd better go in between the two. Okay, maybe that's too extreme of an example, but if you and your family were out in the parking lot. And it was pouring outside with the lightning and Pedobear lurking near the car, and someone had to get the car. The man has to get it, women and children can stay under the shelter, the man can't. This isn't something you should say out loud to women, but keep inside the back of your head. A man usually takes on the protector in the family. A woman being the heart of it. Sure men can kiss boo-boos and read bed time stories too. But we aren't really designed for that. Were the ones who have to go in the dark closet to kick the Boogeyman's ass. Women like to see a man prepared for that role.

4. Treat all Women with Respect and Care!
Kindness, gentle manliness, and hood humor aren't just for the girls you want to date. They can see through that a mile away. They judge you on how you treat the women around them. Treat women as the fairer sex, not the weaker one. Word gets around that your a good man. After that, it should be easier to find a lady. Even if you not looking for a girl, it's still nice to be well liked and appreciated, no?

Well those are what I think being a man is about. I'm sure there is a lot more to it than that, but I'm still seventeen, lol. I'm still learning. I know for a fact though, being a man isn't all shits and giggles. They have duties that they must follow through on, and our rights get compromised over and over again it's ridiculous! But you don't see us complaining, and grouping up. *cough* Feminists! *cough* A man does what needs to be done, and worries about shit later.

Farewell President Bush ^^

Today I want to address an issue that has bothered me for quite some time now. Noooo, I'm not going to rip on Bush. Don't you think everyone does that enough? I mean even John McCain and the rest of the Republican party rip on him. Anyway, everyone here can agree that they have at least ragged on Bush at least once during his 8 years, no? Well the problem with that is when everyone rags on him, it eventually turns into contempt. A lot of people nowadays blame Bush for a lot of their problems. However, a lot of the times, it's their own faults. Hurricane Katrina? Bush warned the governor of Louisiana before that storm ravaged New Orleans. Not his fault, if anything it was the governor's fault for not evacuating anyone. So don't listen to Kanye West and agree Bush doesn't care about black people because it simply isn't true. He ruined the economy you say? It was our own fault for taking on housing debts we couldn't handle, and making everything else crash. However, don't get me wrong, I know a lot of other things were his fault. You could probably find a list of grievances online if you tried. Basically what I'm trying to say, is think about your problem before you go blaming it on someone else. It could very well be your own fault. We just have to suck it up and move on. If you want my opinion of him; I think he is a decent man. He has tried his best for the country he loves. He just makes TERRIBLE decisions, but at least he sticks to em no matter what. That's respectable right? ^^ All in all, I think he just let his ambitions get the best of him, doesn't that happen to everyone? Plus Mr. Cheney pulling his strings all the time didn't help him much either. In fact, Mr. Cheney deserves a lot of the shit in Bush's gigantic shitstorm. Well, that's probably the last political post I'll do in a while. I honestly hate politics, but you always have to keep your watchful eye on it. Or else it's gonna bite you in the ass later on in life. ^^

A Defining Moment in America

Today was a really special day for me. Besides dominating in my finals today, I got to watch Barack Obama's Inauguration live on TV. Now usually I'm pessimistic about politics in general after drowning myself in the Zeigeist documentaries, and being so paranoid about the government for so long. However today was different. I never forget that America's greatness doesn't come from the government. Yup, It's the people that make it great. Americans have been able to overcome many hardships as a country through unity and determination. We have fought for freedom and prosperity countless of times. We overcame a Revolution, a Civil War, survived a depression, fought in World Wars, destroyed segregation, and many other accomplishments. Americans did it together. We have come out of deep shit, stronger and more united every time. Obama, I believe is our generations defining moment. He is our Lincoln, FDR, JFK, MLK, you name it! Call me naive if you'd like, but you should take the time to listen to the man. Whenever he makes a speech, the people around him are filled with hope and confidence. I too am one of these people invoked with hope and determination for a better tomorrow. I really believe he can change the country for the better, and help us overcome this crisis. To this day, I have never been more proud of being an American.

How I feel about cosplayers ^^

Well, most people appreciate cosplay in general, and I know it must be pretty fun. However for me, I can never appreciate "just" cosplay. It has to be either really unique or god damn accurate for me to enjoy it. If a friend asks me what I think about his/her cosplay, and it's not up to my standards. I just don't comment at all, and try to avoid the topic. I can be very OCD about it, that's why I probably will never cosplay in public, unless I'm sure that I look erotic in it. One cosplayer that I'm actually a fan of is Arisa Mizuhara! ^^


Her cosplay makes my heart skip a beat every once in a while. Here is her translated website ^^


One aspect some cosplayers like to follow, is acting like your character ^^ I typically don't like this aspect at all, unless its in bed, then it's hot. The reason being some people really desecrate their character's name, and it's way too geeky even for me, lol. I don't want a Kamina cosplayer acting like a Shinji Ikari, that's just slandering the Kamina name. So what I am trying to say pretty much is. Yea, I'm shallow when it comes to cosplayers, deal with it! :P